Hey yo! what's up what's up?!!

Ever wondering how come i'm updating my blog so often nowadays...
well u're right to say that i'm just TOO free...
hahha no lah..just that i am enjoyin this time where i can just spend time alone..and enjoy my space...

Today, i just watched a lovely romantic movie called "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"....
it's really sweet...kind of like the way the show goes about a pair of lovers who can't decide whether to officially be together or not..and so for the whole show..they just go on being together..yet unofficially together...However...their love for each other never falters..and even till the guy's death..he still makes sure she's hopeful and happy..(it's like how deep can one's love be..) Truly touching..

This show really reminds me of the various insecurities of life..and also the insecurities of love..Actually come to think of it...i think insecurity really plays a big part in a relationship's failure..think bout it..if ur partner is too good-lookin and attractive to other ppl(i.e Louis Koo)..then u'll start to doubt urself..and no matter how much ur partner reassures u...u're never satisfied..and it just accumulates... another example would be a relationship that u cannot see a future in..that u know in the long run..it may not work out...then insecurity sets in..and the rs is just doubted over and over..i guess anyone who's ever been in love would be able to easily tune to the show...

oh yes..i realised something..my lil terapin has really grown up!..been about 5 yrs plus now..and look how much he's grown...

happy and relieved!
me making my last attempt to save a friendship...i'm hopeful!
i love ppl...love friends...
thanks MZ and Addie for supporting me all these months since i came back...
i'm so going to miss u guys...already missing u now as i'm typing this...

today..had some good news...mb i'll be only going over for 1 yr before coming back to work...
somehow...now...do have the urge of coming back to home ground...but i guess at the moment it's cos i'm more tied down by my emotions than rationally thinkin about my future...whatever it is...i'm positive!

Tired..signing off now!! Good nite my darlings...

Recently been a bit confused and not as steady as ever...
i have no idea..but somehow feel like my brain has been clogged for some reason..
and i can't seem to think rationally..and end up doin all the silly things i do..
worse part is...it's alwayz after i do the action..then only do i realised what trouble i've caused..
and then regret...to which..by then..the trouble had already started..and now i'm facing the situation of saving it...

I really do apologise at times like that...
how i do wake ppl up while they are slpin..
and just hound ppl to talk to me...

guess i've alwayz been a pretty verbal person...
and so my best method of comfort...
should be talking..
somehow always feel better after a good chat with friends..
Thanks my lovely budz that have been patiently listening and talking to me..
Feel so loved everytime i hear a response from u..
what can i say...i'm an ATTENTION SEEKER....heehee....

Life is so miraculously crazy...

Today's one fine example!
How one of my impulse actions led to someone msging me this afternoon...
2 strangers, who've never officially been introduced, yet know that bit about each other...
the feeling is so intriguing yet interesting..
unexplainable..indescribable...
guess people are just all made curious about things...

on one hand happy to have directly communicated with that person..
yet on the other...sad that i was persuaded or adviced on something which i felt surprising to hear from someone who hardly really knows me...
Funny how i didn't hear it from ONE that i should be hearing it from...

How generous can one be with their love? How much will u be willing to give in to- to see the one u love happy? Happy...can we all really be that happy with the way life is?

Sexiest Song Ever...(oh so charmed)
曲：迷迭香
歌手：周杰伦 专辑：依然范特西


你的嘴角
微微上翘
性感地无可救药

想象不到
如此心跳
你的一切都想要

开心的意料
神圣的祈祷
我将给你的信号
已陪你装出个吊
这里最不可缺就是人呢
你想起
给拥抱

烛火在燃烧
用梦中轻佻眼神
试瞧了几秒
关于你的舞蹈
你慵懒的扭动肢腰
受不了

你随风飘扬的笑
有迷迭香的味道
离开薄荷味的撒娇
对我发出恋爱的讯号

你优雅地像一只猫
动作轻盈地围绕
爱的甜味蔓延发酵
暧昧爱的刚好

开心的意料
神圣的祈祷
我将给你的信号
已陪你装出个吊
这里最不可缺就是人呢
你想起
给拥抱

烛火在燃烧
用梦中轻佻眼神
试瞧了几秒
关于你的舞蹈
你慵懒的扭动肢腰
受不了

你随风飘扬的笑
有迷迭香的味道
离开薄荷味的撒娇
对我发出恋爱的讯号

你优雅地像一只猫
动作轻盈地围绕
爱的甜味蔓延发酵
暧昧爱的刚好

你的嘴角微微上翘
性感地无可救药想象不到如此心跳
你的一切都想要..
预兆气氛微妙
因为爱你我挣倒
预兆气氛微妙
因为爱你我挣倒

i have a confession to make....

honestly...i think Jay Chou's really cute in the MTV for 迷失香..
and i'm so throughly taken over everytime i see that MTV...
and the song...is so....HYPNOTISING...

before u say i'm ‘花痴’(honestly dunno if this is the correct wording)...
pls do go check out the song and mtv...
ooh so the mesmerising...

today...i find life such a joke...
there's always these times when i'll find that time plays a trick on me...
when there's always missed moments...
or moments that u can predict will be missed moments...
why am i so 嬗变..dunno..can't explain...
hahhaa...but at least i get to laugh at myself at the end of the day..
cheer myself up...
i think i'm a bit psychotic...
or maybe..just a true gemini with two sides to one face...

These days....
Been a bit upset...
having some problems at home and as well as having issues with myself...

Sometimes i really think it's so hard even just being a person...
Or i would say...it's easy being a person that doesn't care about the world or anything...
but it's hard being a person that cares for the people around them...

My bro just came in to remind me of my value systems..guess i was really not a good niece as i didn't go to visit my uncle when he was in the hospital...dunno why i didn't go...but at that point..i know that...i just didn't feel like it...sometimes..i guess...we can't just do what we feel like..but we have to do what we are required to do...for the sake of everyone...

sigh..life's really vicious in an aspect...that is...if u dun turn up..or u offend someone...that person or the person's family can just remember u for life for that one thing...and your relationship with that person or the family can just become torn...and this might not just mean only u..but sometimes the others around u can also be dragged down by ur actions..

Why are relationships such fragile matters? Any sort of relationship, whether friendships or family ties...as long as it's a connection between 2 ppl..it can be easily torn, easily stretched just by a single expression....

Why so pessimistic? i don't know..these days..it's just that i can't seem to tune myself..i can't seem to get right with everyone...it results with me not satisfying myself...esp when i see ppl around me being disappointed...being hurt..it just troubles me.. esp when i'm the one that caused it...and it seems the more i try to save the situation..it just becomes worse...feeling lost at this point..

Hey everyone!!!

Yup it's time...
Going off in nearly a couple of weeks time...
Really going to miss everyone....
Even though i've been here for already 6 mths..but yet i didn't get to catch up with a lot of ppl..
truly apologetic! I'm sorry....

oh yes yes...please do call me and tell me when u're free..then we can meet up before i go back!!

Well, these days...i've been busy with preparing to go over...
things have not been workin out that well...but i'm sure..i have hope..that it'll be all good...
these days...also been thinking about how terrible a friend i've been to a lot of ppl...
dun really know how to improve to be a better person...
maybe i'm just lazy...

sigh...

is it the more u can't get something, the more u'll actually crave and want it?

these days...been asking myself that...
why i keep having strong feelings about what i can't have...
or what i want but can't have...

these days...preparing for my trip back to canberra...
can be abit pressurizing and scary...
feel bit scared to face the future...
yet...i know there's no turning back..and only moving forward...

many ppl i know will be leaving me next sem...
many ppl i know have already went back to where they came from...
and i'll be going back to a place where strangers dominate my circle...
even though my future seems so nicely set out...
yet...the journey to that future...seems so uncertain...so shaky...
must hold myself firm...must push on..must not be waivered...
whatever happens..happens for a reason...and it's for me to learn how to cope with it...
Sometimes i do wonder...why must i keep pushing myself to be so strong...
is there ever a time where i can just be vulnerable..where i can just keep in my lil comfy spot...
to enjoy the moment...

Hello Dearest Readers!!

Happy New Year!!...What a lovely New Year i had....

Sorry i haven't blogged for the longest time...so what have i been busy with...
well what else but work...hahaha
but i'm also happy to announce that....i'm finally back to Bu WU ZHENG YE status...
sighz..hahahaa after 3 mths of work i gave up...
but not cos i was super unhappy with it...but just that i have to prepare to further study back in Canberra...

Speaking of which...i hope to be going back to canberra next month...i believe everything will fall in place..and it'll be all good....got to work hard now...for the next 2 yrs...going to be tough..but i'm sure i'll make it...

Just last week...Miki came over to Singapore for a visit...for only 4 days...
but i'm so glad she came over...can't believe we haven't met for a year already...and only now then we meet..but only for 4 days...it's so hard...japan's really too costly for me to go over...if not...i'll fly over as regularly as i can i guess....
anyway...didn't know that there were actually so many places in Singapore for tourist to go look see...haha 4 days was hardly enough...didn't even have time to go shopping...but i'm happy that at least we met most of our mutual friends here...and that she had a taste of the original Singapore Sling from Long Bar at Raffles hotel...it was SUPER...

And just today..i returned from a short holiday in Malacca...it was SUPER too!! so much to eat...
we ate things that...well Singapore didn't really have...so it was goody and yummy...and we bought lots of stuff back too!!...hee since i won't be able to celebrate CNY here...not even VDAY...i guess the best would be that i could at least eat the CNY biscuits in advance...ooh my fave pineapple tarts and kueh bangkit...FAVOURITE!!