Yay!! exams are over...so we need to party hard...hahahaa
nahhz...it's just chillin out and havin some fun before the results are out and we'll have to start all over again...making decisions and all...these days..i think i've been pretty blur about how i'm feelin about some stuff..like..actually i dun really feel anythin..but then mentally..i keep thinkin i still feel something for someone..how weird is that....and it's like cos of that..i end up doing stupid things..or sayin stupid stuff...sometimes ..it's not so good to be too honest..must be smart also ah...

yay..cel's coming tom..so excited...but so tired also..hahaa

oh yes yes..today...me and soffi cooked curry chicken and cheng tng...soooo goood...soooo funn....hahahaa...

okiez..

finally moved house...
finally moved to turner..
the apartment's good..
really cosy..
really comfortable..
THank God for family..
i guess i've alwiz been pretty well taken care of by everyone..
seems like i've alwiz been the youngest or the younger one everywhere..
being the youngest in the family, being in canberra with an elder cousin, being the youngest our of the 4 of us good pals(though it's just like 4 mths diff min)..hahaa..but it's all good..
and sometimes it's like u just get so used to it..
so spoilt...or so takin others for granted..
to all the youngest kids of the family...dun u think we're so fortunate to have so many jie jies and kor kors around? heez...

busy week this week cos have to clean up and all..

Birthday photos as promised!
hahaha...yay..thanks to soffi who brought the camera...lazy me...my camera was upstairs..hahaha

last paper tom...then after that...PPPAAARRRTTTYYY>>>!!!

It's my birthday today!!
what a surprise!!

Soffi tricked me! I thought that my night would just quietly go pass and that we would just be studying and watching soccer...heez...but in the end..heehee...at 12 plus..ching ching...
knock knock...SURPRISE!!!

so cool! Wendy, Angeline, Teresa, Arif and Hillya surprised me with a nice homemade bday cake and an in tune bday song!! and guess what..the cake was made by Soffi and i didn't know anything about it!!...Really really happy!...super delighted! my first homemade cake..and it was super..it had cheese on it, ice cream, cake, and an oreo base...like 4 layers..it was SUPER!!...SOFFI U'RE the BEST! we took many many pictures..i'll post it up another time..

and had really really lovely presents!...Beanie and scarf, chocs and gift card...earrings....Thanks guys...really feel loved!...and also not to forget CK's lovely caramel tart and choc muffin that she gave to me before she went back...ohh...and i've not forgotten..my early bday present which u gave me last month...a beautiful hand knitted long pink and white scarf...i've been using in ever since winter started..really came in just on time..thanks girl...miss u girl...see u in 3 wks okiez?

Thanks everyone for the surprises and the gifts and the love and the cards and the smses and cheerfulness...lovely birthday morn!

Sorry cel i didn't pick up the phone just now...but but..U'RE STILL THE FIRST PERSON TO WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!..heehee...secret...only u and i know why.. yes? ..heehee..


lovely bday gifts

Silly cow me...

sighz..i don't know..like have so many things to think about..
but it's like i still have 3 papers next week..
i don't seem to be caring too much bout the papers...but then seem to be thinking too much about my life after the papers...

really don't know what's my plan..
i know i'm moving out next week..but i haven't packed my stuff yet..
plus i finish exams only on fri..and i plan to move on sunday..how mad is that...
then like...
after that...when should i go back?
sighz..a lot of mixed feelings..
guess it's hard to understand...and it's also hard for me to explain..

i guess..this is really it..
i'm graduating this sem..
a lot of uncertainties and insecurities..
but i have to face it..
i have to grow up..
i have to learn to take care of myself...
have to learn to face people and know how to build relations...
it's all part and parcel of life...

sometimes..really dun wan to grow up...
sometimes..wish i can grow up faster...

what will life be like when i go back?
i don't know..can't predict..
feel so bad..cos i feel like i've been neglecting a lot of friends..and end up now we're not even in contact anymore..
but the thing is..i can't think of who i'm neglecting..
what i'm suppose to do...

Recently...i've just started pondering over some lil points again..

haha..not that i'm very free...
but then while i was doing my quiet times..it just came to me..
that...i've stopped thinking about inner beauty for a pretty long time...
haha been too obsessed with outward look and physical appearance too much that i forget that what matters is actually inside...

well..good thing i rediscovered it early..heez...
yup..i guess ultimately..it doesn't really matter how u look as much..
but if inwardly u are beautiful..it will show in time to come..
like..
just being sincere, really lovin frens for who they are, not thinkin of any ulterior motives...
i like that kind of feeling...
when u don't have to hide ur true self,
u can just be what u want in front of ur mates,
not worryin about embarressment or whether u are throwing ur image away...
what image?
i dunno..i guess true friendship accepts all..


haha just some random thoughts...

i'm screwed...
my exam starts next wednesday..
and until now i still don't have the exam feeling...
now it's like kan cheong that i haven't been studyin..
but i can't help it...i can't get the info into my head...

and plus..dunno why..but i think i'm getting fatter by the min..
it's horrible..but i already stopped buyin snacks...
oh well..