歌曲：因为爱上了

杨千嬅

也许是你修长的手指尖
也许是你突笑起来的感觉
轻靠着你的肩 我已经不在乎 靠不住的永远

有时候不知不觉会流泪
有时候觉得对你完全不了解
寂寞很安全 介我宁愿冒险
看不到的明天 只要 看得到你

因为爱上了 什么都舍不得
为了爱心疼 说真的我很快乐
你也许不会是我 牵着手 走到最后的人
那又如何 思念是诚实的

因为爱上了 什么都原谅了
爱到哪一天 自己都不敢保证
我们之外的别人
不会懂 我这样的选择 那又如何

虽然有时在怀里 你的眼神远远的 我没有多问
我就是爱上了 我就是认真了
有什么不对呢

多希望我是这么坚强的女人。。但我却不是。。宁愿放弃。。看不到永久的爱情。。不实在。。感觉不到安全感。。没信心。。看不到你的付出。。体验不到你的热情。。有跟没有差不多。。虽然问题充足。。但却。。。仍然爱你。。

don't know why..even though english is my better language...yet i like to use mandarin to describe my thoughts and emotions...weird it seems...

骗自己是不是人类中的一种技术？就算多累。。也还是会想到。。
女人真虚伪。。总是为心爱的男生找借口骗自己他一定是为了某某的原应才做出所谓的行为。。
女人总是吸一口气。。吞下自己的难过，自己的失望来接受所有的借口。
只要他说一句”对不起“， “请原谅我～”，“我错了！”。。自己就会心软如豆腐。。不理智的再接受无奈的日子。。也许只有我是这样想的吧。。过了一个星期。。不闻不问。。一丝的关心也没。。算了吧。。就是觉得自己好笨。。一直被玩弄都继续错下去。。自己问自己。。“值得吗？“。。虽然懂是不值得。。但还装着无所谓。。兜了一圈。。还是在原位。。

sigh...

New placement this week..

this 5 weeks going to be in Canberra Hospital for placements....
it's just been 2 days...but i've been so incredibly stress it's not funny...
many many things to do..many expectations...everything seems to be coming in my face now and i'm not really ready for it....been clamming up for a while..find it difficult to express myself these days...especially to my supervisors and all...don't know why so shy..more like scared to say something wrong...just been wanting to slp straight after work everyday...
starting work at 830 and leaving at 5 is so tiring le....good thing i don't have to work this thursday and sunday..but i'll have to prepare my stuff...still the same lah..just that i get so much less pay...

now finding a place to stay from Nov....sigh..it's been pretty hard...i thought i had one place set for me..but well she wanted me to stay for a yr at least...and i couldn't commit to that..so i guess it has to go if she finds someone else....

Just signed up for the ielts test in Dec..sigh..english test again...hate doing language exams...never been good at it...O'levels only had a B3...but this time...i have to get 7/8 for the test...just so that i make it to apply for my PR...lots to think..lots to do...

Ppl ask me..do i really like Australia so much to want to be a PR here....well my answer is..i like it enough to want to be here..and i think when opportunity knocks..we should take it..for better or worse..it's for the experience..and i'm sure i'll learn from it..it's for 5 yrs..and i guess even plus 5 yrs..i'll still be young..and i can still go back if it doesn't work out here...

As for life outside work...i don't know why...things have just been moving in circles....no matter how many times i try to get out...i somehow get sucked back in...reminds me of a typhoon or cyclone...and i'm just so tired now...can't be bothered..just going to leave it alone for the moment..it's the busy period for everyone..and we're all trying to survive and graduate here...it's been hard... will be as supportive as i can with whatever energy i have left..and well just take it as it comes and try not to escape again for the moment...not sure if it's worth it or not..but at least we try...

下一次恋爱
歌手：萧亚轩 专辑：明天

作词:姚谦作曲:sakura akira 编曲:jae chong

还记得不停留着眼泪对天空~喊着
我恨你~的那年冬季
虽然当时心情还清晰
关于恨~早随他远去
只剩下可惜

好像退潮了一样
已经不伤心
想他的次数也已降低
却怀念起恋爱的心情
为一人心动牵挂美丽情绪

下一次恋爱~何时会再来
经过漫漫长夜总会温柔曙光在等待
寂寞的心太久空白我想念拥抱的实在

下一次恋爱何时会来
想要再冒个险
却又不想再次受到伤害
流过泪的心情会明白
我等待~某人把我的心再~打开

还记得最后一通电话
才明白爱情竟可以破碎得那么快
那曾熟悉的身体灵魂
一转眼变成了回忆
像不曾存在

无论是见面的愉快 还是相思的情怀
有些心情也只有在恋爱中才会出现
我多希望明天再感受重来
等下次恋爱的曙光
我想恋爱

(oh baby you're the one for me)(yes you are)

finally a holiday after so many weeks!
Thanks to Becky accompanying me the whole day..
we had such a lovely and relaxing time!

First, we woke up for a nice big breaky..which we spent an hour cooking and preparing it...
then after breaky...we got changed and made up to go to brand depot....after walkin in and out of so many shops...we finally got...nothing..hahahaha but a nice laksa and some spring rolls and also some green tea frappucino!guess it's still food that we're interested in...

then after, we headed to civic to get some coffee at Gus....chit chat chit chat...then later we went to funland..and played dance dance revolution and the other para kinda like game...hee...i'm so bad at arcade games..hahaa but it was fun...Becky was so good at it..hahaa...

After coffee...we went to pick alex..and then went for dinner at the Labour Club...well that was like the only thing open in Belco during this time..so not much of a choice really..haha...yup yup..

After dinner...we went to alex place to get some red bean which he had prepared for us..too full..will have it for breaky tomorrow...

well..things are getting clearer...i guess it's really best for us to be just friends at the moment...being in a rs is too taxing on both of us...as much as i wldn't wan it to be like that...it's only for the better...