HiYa!

it's me...me just came back from andrew's house for our mini class gathering..haha....
we had SO mUCH food....his mum made turkey...then we bought sausages, pasta, soup....haha and lots of cheese which we didn't really get to use in the end..haha....we cooked for ourselves...haha... then we also bought 8 bottles of drinks cos we tot that there was going to be 12 ppl..haha...ended up also cannot finish....then i ate lunch and dinner altogether..haha...SO FULL>..so piggyfied...haha....

this is my second day of piggying....yesterday i had a family lunch then later another family dinner...my goodness...the amount of food i eat..think it is my 2 days worth of food...haha..plus today? oh my goodness...then tom night i still have a dnd to go to... argh....all the weight...it's coming BACK!!!...it's so diff to lose weight...but so easy to gain...what...or how can i help myself...it's mad..haha....

ooooh...and i watched MEET THE FOCKERS on christmas eve with my darlin Celine..haha....
it's really hilarious...i'd definitely recommend it to everyone..haha...it's crude but i think the jokes are funny..and the baby is soooooo CUTE....esp when he says..." ass.....HOLE..." with his mouth in a pout...oh my goodness..so cute...haha....i wouldn't mind watchin it again and again man..haha....

hey i just realised..i've lost my links for all my darlin fren's blogs connected to mine..so sorry guys...do u mind like.e.er...giving me ur adds again...then i can add it to mine? thanks!

Hey guys...
today's been rather tired for me...dunno why...but my calves are feelin the cramps...
just like old days in sc after tennis trainin..then i wun be able to slp cos my calves would ache the whole night...guess too much work..

but even tho i work so much..i'm still poor...i just spend too much..even my dad has to stop me from being spendthrift....think if i marry a rich guy..he'll be poor in no time..haha...

u know what..there's a song that kind of totally depicts what i'm feelin now...it's...

愛你的兩個我- by Wen-Lan...landy

(Landy 1)Wo~城市燈火　對比我內心的落寞 我恨我自己的軟弱　離不開你的溫柔
(Landy 2)另一個我　提醒著我　不能永遠對你寬容 連自己要什麼　都沒把握　以後如何面對生活 (Landy 1)Oh~我　就是太念舊　習慣的東西捨不得丟 說委屈　不如說愛你愛得太重
＊Because I Want You　跟自己在拔河　能怎樣呢 愛你的兩個我　迷途在進退之間
Because I Love You　跟自己在拔河 你有多愛我　愛過我什麼　我會傾聽著　別讓我等得太久 (Landy 2)我天一亮就要離開　還給你全部的自由
(Landy 1)你會感到愧疚　還是解脫　我很在乎你的感受 Wo~我一數到九十九　電話仍堅持他的沉默 這一刻　我知道我輸掉了所有　＊

it's like..that feelin of fallin for someone u shouldn't really be fallin for...at least it's not time
and that fallin for someone is not something u can control..
it's probably just a feelin that goes deeper and deeper..and that the only thing that can keep u from fallin is ur mind...when ur mind truly knows what u should be doing....
oh it's so sick...i just hate the feelin of fallin for someone..and at this point..anyone..

like i'm at the time when i'll have no time to think bout this kind of stuff..
like i'm going abroad and got to really study and not waste my parents money...
but the problem is..i'm only human..feelins and tots dun just come and go as u like...
as much as u can deny the problem or the tot...it'll still come back..

it's like the thing about tryin to forget someone and tellin urself to forget the person...it's IMPOSSIBLE!..haha the best is to let things flow and slowly forget..

ha..thanks God for frens like Cel and Jing..ha..my bgr consultants..haha....givers of good advice and sane-keepers..haha...

Hey guys!!...haha it's been a long while since u've heard from me right? haha guessed some of u must have got sick of tuning into my stagnant, neglected blog...

hmmm..ok the update of my life..

in the last 6 months..

first was moving house...haha
as some of u know...my ex house was a 5 storey walk up apartment...
so just imagine moving house...we had to climb up and down for i dunno how many times just to get the stuff downstairs to be stored in the new house...

and cos the new house was not renovated just yet...we had to stay in a hotel for like 2 weeks plus before being able to move in...so how's that...it was so inconvenient....but i'm glad tat it's over..

while stayin at the hotel...
we had to buy our furniture for our new place...
and i guess..ikea could just be my second home in those few weeks...we went to ikea like 5 to 6 times and sometimes just to get ideas only..without buyin or ordering anything...and the tough part of buyin furniture is knowin the measurements...findin the right colour and material..and much much more...but it was a really good experience for me...at least i enjoyed makin up my room..haha and now i'm soooo proud of it...

second was...
my university studies...i had a load of ideas and places that i wanted to go...had many courses i had in mind to take....had so many opinions..so many options...really almost went mad...
the things i wanted to do...and the things that i could afford to do....is just different...
so it ended that i had to do something that i could afford to do at the same time something i'm interested in...haha and here it is....

i'm be doing human nutrition @ the University Of Canberra...
haha..CANBERRA...wAt?!!...
i know..haha i had like lots of responses like tat...
haha and i thank u guys for ur concern..
like how's a girl like me goin to live in a quiet and lonesome city like canberra...haha...
looks like this lil girl is goin to be a bookworm..hahaa..if that's possible..haha...

Then just last month..
my grand dad passed away...
it was a sad moment...a sudden moment...but i guess everyone goes through the same cycle...
no one's immortal...yup...
but in that period..i experienced the warmest..closest feeling of family unity and love...
it was the closest i've been with my cousins..spendin like 5 to 6 days together everyday...eating, playin,slpin..everything.... for like 2 to 3 nights i was awake with my cousins..playin cards..talkin..chasing cats...changin shifts with the parents..hahaa...it was kind of cool...

i mean..after all..we usually only see each other like twice a year...once in christmas and the other in chinese new year...

talking about new year, i wun be in town for chinese new year... it's so sad...

I'll be leavin for australia on the 27th of Jan...probe wun be comin back for a yr...haha...
hope i wun be forgotten when i come back tho..hahaa...

long blog for today...=)

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