well...

it's finally the week of my holidays..and i've been enjoying it so far...
so happy to meet up with ol' friends and catch up with em the last few days over dinner and lunch..
today i travelled all around canberra...
went to deakin for yum cha, then to gunghalin for asian groceries, then to civic to cut hair and drink coffee and have cake...then went to florey for dinner at taj agra...it was such a fun day we had ....but a bit tired from the driving...
managed to settle some issues tonight as well..it's all good..feel better now...
the air is clearer..hope things will work out well...

Alex just reminded me about this song yesterday..
so true..so sweet...

你要的爱
歌手：戴佩妮 专辑：怎样

虽然经常梦见你
还是毫无头绪
外面正在下着雨
今天是星期几
but i don`t know
你去那里

虽然不曾怀疑你
还是忐忑不定
谁是你的那个唯一
原谅我怀疑自己

我明白
我要的爱
会把我宠坏
像一个小孩
只懂在你怀里坏

你要的爱
不只是依赖
要像个大男孩
风吹又日晒
生活自由自在

歌曲：背叛
歌手：曹格 专辑：superman

曲:曹格
词:阿丹 邬裕康
编曲:涂惠源

雨
不停落下来

花
怎么都不开

尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀

爱
只剩下无奈

我
一直不愿再去猜

钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白

爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

心..
有一句感慨
还能够跟谁对白

你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在


Just got to know this song...think it's really sweet...definitely ktv-worthy...
heee...how's everyone? been more than 6 mths since i came back to Aust...feel like it's been years...dunno when i'll be going back...

what i've been afraid most has come back...
for a moment, i thought it's cos i have commitment phobia...
well it's true to a certain extent...
how do you commit to someone you think may hurt you?
sigh...i just lack confidence...lost trust...keep thinking why am i back in this when i tried so hard to forget, to move on, to live life...to a certain extent...to pretend nothin ever happened and just remember the sweet moments of what has passed...

silly as it seems..but just feel as if there's a string tugging me..
even though hurt, even though disappointed, even though sad, add tinge of insecurity...
yet put on a brave front, pretend to be magmanimous, pretend that i don't mind when i do...
how long can i be like that...

feel tired, feel like backing out...should i? or is it just the moment?

and no, it's not pms for sure...