Hey guys...
today's been rather tired for me...dunno why...but my calves are feelin the cramps...
just like old days in sc after tennis trainin..then i wun be able to slp cos my calves would ache the whole night...guess too much work..

but even tho i work so much..i'm still poor...i just spend too much..even my dad has to stop me from being spendthrift....think if i marry a rich guy..he'll be poor in no time..haha...

u know what..there's a song that kind of totally depicts what i'm feelin now...it's...

愛你的兩個我- by Wen-Lan...landy

(Landy 1)Wo~城市燈火　對比我內心的落寞 我恨我自己的軟弱　離不開你的溫柔
(Landy 2)另一個我　提醒著我　不能永遠對你寬容 連自己要什麼　都沒把握　以後如何面對生活 (Landy 1)Oh~我　就是太念舊　習慣的東西捨不得丟 說委屈　不如說愛你愛得太重
＊Because I Want You　跟自己在拔河　能怎樣呢 愛你的兩個我　迷途在進退之間
Because I Love You　跟自己在拔河 你有多愛我　愛過我什麼　我會傾聽著　別讓我等得太久 (Landy 2)我天一亮就要離開　還給你全部的自由
(Landy 1)你會感到愧疚　還是解脫　我很在乎你的感受 Wo~我一數到九十九　電話仍堅持他的沉默 這一刻　我知道我輸掉了所有　＊

it's like..that feelin of fallin for someone u shouldn't really be fallin for...at least it's not time
and that fallin for someone is not something u can control..
it's probably just a feelin that goes deeper and deeper..and that the only thing that can keep u from fallin is ur mind...when ur mind truly knows what u should be doing....
oh it's so sick...i just hate the feelin of fallin for someone..and at this point..anyone..

like i'm at the time when i'll have no time to think bout this kind of stuff..
like i'm going abroad and got to really study and not waste my parents money...
but the problem is..i'm only human..feelins and tots dun just come and go as u like...
as much as u can deny the problem or the tot...it'll still come back..

it's like the thing about tryin to forget someone and tellin urself to forget the person...it's IMPOSSIBLE!..haha the best is to let things flow and slowly forget..

ha..thanks God for frens like Cel and Jing..ha..my bgr consultants..haha....givers of good advice and sane-keepers..haha...