New placement this week..
this 5 weeks going to be in Canberra Hospital for placements....
it's just been 2 days...but i've been so incredibly stress it's not funny...
many many things to do..many expectations...everything seems to be coming in my face now and i'm not really ready for it....been clamming up for a while..find it difficult to express myself these days...especially to my supervisors and all...don't know why so shy..more like scared to say something wrong...just been wanting to slp straight after work everyday...
starting work at 830 and leaving at 5 is so tiring le....good thing i don't have to work this thursday and sunday..but i'll have to prepare my stuff...still the same lah..just that i get so much less pay...
now finding a place to stay from Nov....sigh..it's been pretty hard...i thought i had one place set for me..but well she wanted me to stay for a yr at least...and i couldn't commit to that..so i guess it has to go if she finds someone else....
Just signed up for the ielts test in Dec..sigh..english test again...hate doing language exams...never been good at it...O'levels only had a B3...but this time...i have to get 7/8 for the test...just so that i make it to apply for my PR...lots to think..lots to do...
Ppl ask me..do i really like Australia so much to want to be a PR here....well my answer is..i like it enough to want to be here..and i think when opportunity knocks..we should take it..for better or worse..it's for the experience..and i'm sure i'll learn from it..it's for 5 yrs..and i guess even plus 5 yrs..i'll still be young..and i can still go back if it doesn't work out here...
As for life outside work...i don't know why...things have just been moving in circles....no matter how many times i try to get out...i somehow get sucked back in...reminds me of a typhoon or cyclone...and i'm just so tired now...can't be bothered..just going to leave it alone for the moment..it's the busy period for everyone..and we're all trying to survive and graduate here...it's been hard... will be as supportive as i can with whatever energy i have left..and well just take it as it comes and try not to escape again for the moment...not sure if it's worth it or not..but at least we try...
this 5 weeks going to be in Canberra Hospital for placements....
it's just been 2 days...but i've been so incredibly stress it's not funny...
many many things to do..many expectations...everything seems to be coming in my face now and i'm not really ready for it....been clamming up for a while..find it difficult to express myself these days...especially to my supervisors and all...don't know why so shy..more like scared to say something wrong...just been wanting to slp straight after work everyday...
starting work at 830 and leaving at 5 is so tiring le....good thing i don't have to work this thursday and sunday..but i'll have to prepare my stuff...still the same lah..just that i get so much less pay...
now finding a place to stay from Nov....sigh..it's been pretty hard...i thought i had one place set for me..but well she wanted me to stay for a yr at least...and i couldn't commit to that..so i guess it has to go if she finds someone else....
Just signed up for the ielts test in Dec..sigh..english test again...hate doing language exams...never been good at it...O'levels only had a B3...but this time...i have to get 7/8 for the test...just so that i make it to apply for my PR...lots to think..lots to do...
Ppl ask me..do i really like Australia so much to want to be a PR here....well my answer is..i like it enough to want to be here..and i think when opportunity knocks..we should take it..for better or worse..it's for the experience..and i'm sure i'll learn from it..it's for 5 yrs..and i guess even plus 5 yrs..i'll still be young..and i can still go back if it doesn't work out here...
As for life outside work...i don't know why...things have just been moving in circles....no matter how many times i try to get out...i somehow get sucked back in...reminds me of a typhoon or cyclone...and i'm just so tired now...can't be bothered..just going to leave it alone for the moment..it's the busy period for everyone..and we're all trying to survive and graduate here...it's been hard... will be as supportive as i can with whatever energy i have left..and well just take it as it comes and try not to escape again for the moment...not sure if it's worth it or not..but at least we try...
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