what i've been afraid most has come back...
for a moment, i thought it's cos i have commitment phobia...
well it's true to a certain extent...
how do you commit to someone you think may hurt you?
sigh...i just lack confidence...lost trust...keep thinking why am i back in this when i tried so hard to forget, to move on, to live life...to a certain extent...to pretend nothin ever happened and just remember the sweet moments of what has passed...

silly as it seems..but just feel as if there's a string tugging me..
even though hurt, even though disappointed, even though sad, add tinge of insecurity...
yet put on a brave front, pretend to be magmanimous, pretend that i don't mind when i do...
how long can i be like that...

feel tired, feel like backing out...should i? or is it just the moment?

and no, it's not pms for sure...