I'm depressed! i missed the Singapore Street Festival this year...not like i've been going every year...but..the feeling is depressing..when ur frens start to win awards and stuff..and u're like..

i'm here..what can i do?
i miss it all..i miss the stage...the anxiousness...lookin at people...
it's the experience that means so much..
the hours of practise...
everything....it's like a dream...
a dream i tried to step in..
yes, i knew that i had to come out of it..
yes i knew that it was goin to be short lived..
only for a while...
but i really wanted to try it...
and yes..now that i've tried it...
i just want more of it..
want to do more of it...

now when everyone's moved on...
finding experiences for themselves...
i'm goin to have to remain stagnant here...
as much as i want to reach for that dream that seems somewhat impossible..
a dream that may make u lose focus of what u're doing now..
a dream that though unreachable, gives u this thirst and longing for it..

i know it's unrealistic..
not that i'm really good at it...
but i really enjoy it...

honestly..i think a lot of u won't get what i'm trying to say..
but the few that know me in that aspect..
should know what i'm talking bout...