Been pretty down recently....

Been having assignments due every week...and exam last week...really drained, stressed and everything....

Driving lessons haven't been really going so smoothly...really don't understand how come everyone seems to pass theirs so easily...but i seem to have so much trouble just getting the license to...was talking to my dad bout driving the other day...and i just felt so homesick..i just missed him so much...

Social life has been alright...but emotionally i just feel so down...
i don't know how to balance myself...always seem to be pleasing people..so much so that i get hurt myself and i just absorb..sometimes it feel like a 身不由己 situation...i hate it...like i can't decide what i wan to do and is alwiz thinkin how other ppl will feel if i did this or if i did that...
this weekend i disappointed a lot of people...and i disappointed myself too...feel really sorry..but who knows...only i do...

really wish there's someone here that truly understands and supports me through all times...
not wanting to sound pathetic...but i just feel so tired and in a sense lonely i guess...
This weekend..the past just shot in front of my face...i can't say that it didn't affect me..it really did...

these days..just perpetually feel like crying...been tearing...
dunno how to describe...